No fucks given
Just got up because Bear AND Bean are both sick !!!
Today needs to get better. This is not cool. I can’t have me babies being sick
Getting two new tattoo’s Friday. A puzzle piece & the eagle me papa has
Sickness doesn’t even matter anymore. Because even if am sick I still have to work, clean, cook, & take care of everything
13 hour shift today. Feet smell like a hobo’s ass.
Don’t care, made 104$
So, I met a guy. & he seems super sweet. Well, he is. Haha. But, yeah. We texted yesterday for 6 hours, & then talked on the phone for like 3 hours & then I fell asleep on him & I woke up this morning to a good night message. I smiled like a retard. But, yeah, he’s 6’4 ! So, that’s a huge plus. We agree on a lot of things. & I already made me view on sex known. So, no worries there. But, yeah, am trying to not get ahead of myself, but it’s really hard.
I hate myself. I let myself give in & relapse. I was doing so good. It would have been three months yesterday. But, no, I had to give in, & now it’s all I think about. & honestly, I don’t care this time. They said it would get better, that things would get easier. They were wrong. Everything fell apart & I don’t have to the control nor willpower to build it all back up.
So I’ve been throwing up all night & I stupidly decided to re-arrange me room, & now am even sicker than I was.
Room clean. Dishes done. Presents wrapped. Christmas shopping list for everyone else made. Now what do I do ?
This room looks like a tornado came through & it’s annoying as crap.
I hate breaking in new shoes
Time to strip & do a whole lot of nothing
Going to bed. I have to work in the morning /:
Bought me second pair of high heels today. And they are a half inch higher than the other ones. I feel like I’ve advanced to the second level of being a grown up lady. Haha
Last night was…just amazing.
I didn’t want to go Black Friday shopping but me friend convinced me. & I actually had fun. It brought back so many memories & am so thankful that things are fixed now.